I'm a romantic, always have been, and I always will be. I have this romanticized outlook on the world. I tend to see the good in everyone, but I am also very guarded when it comes down to who I trust. There are about 5 people in this world that I trust fully, and I mean fully, with anything, and most of those people are people that I call family. One person in particular that I trust is my boyfriend. People hear this a lot from girls, and the guy normally ends up breaking the girl's heart. I don't say this lightly, I trust my boyfriend with anything because we started out as best friends and we still are. In my opinion, the best relationships begin as friendships. Before I fell for Tanner, my boyfriend, we were the best of friends. We spent every waking moment together, hanging out and talking. He truly became my shoulder to cry on, especially at the hardest times in my life. I began to trust him with absolutely anything, which is why I began to fall for him romantically in the first place, that, and the fact that he always knows how to make me laugh.
We were Juniors in high school at the time, he was in my art class, and for the longest time, he thought I was "stuck up" and "preppy" because I was a cheerleader, and to me, he was the weirdest kid I had ever met (LOL). At that point, he was what one would refer to as the "class clown." Every day in art, we grew closer and closer and began to actually become friends, since before then, he couldn't stand me. Once we overlooked our high school stereotypes, are looked past what we thought we knew before about one another, we became inseparable best friends. He started to see my depth, rather than what he thought was just a shallow cheerleader, and I started to see his caring heart and amazing personality, aside from the jokes he always made in class. Towards the end of Junior year, we were so close that everyone already thought we were dating and when we said we weren't together people knew before we did that our friendship would eventually grow into something more.
That summer, I tried not to love him. I thought that if we were together it would ruin our friendship, so for the longest time I hid my feelings until I finally realized that a relationship wouldn't hurt our friendship, but our friendship would make the relationship last. On a summer night, I told him I loved him. Bold move, I know, but I did love him, I loved him before we dated because I had loved him even when we were just friends, and I used to tell him that when we were friends, but obviously this time it was different. Everything changed after I told him that, but for the better. The thing that I thought would tear us apart as friends only made our friendship stronger.
To this day, he is still my best friend, my shoulder to cry on, and the one I trust with anything. I know that no matter what, I have this place in my heart for him always, and he does for me as well. I can't even express what a blessing it is to love your best friend and I thank God for a man who not only has one of the most genuine and caring hearts of anyone I have ever met but also for the fact that I can be myself and joke around with him. This love is a gift, and I don't take it for granted. No matter what the future holds, I will always share some of the best memories of my life with my best friend. These last two years are just the beginning and I can't wait to learn more about life with him. (If he can put up with me for that long LOL).