I have linked my IGTV Video about my Hawaii vacay here! Give it a watch and tell me what you think! If you like these type of IGTV videos and want to see more of them from me in the future, leave a comment on my video to let me know!
I’ve shared a little on the blog before about how Tanner and I met, and fell in love, you can read it here ! We’ve been together since 2013, high school sweethearts, and now, he’s about to be my husband!
Even though I’ve linked the other post talking about how we met & fell in love, I wanna do a quick recap, because this story gives me all the feels.
He and I were actually so annoyed with one another for a period of time in high school, I for real thought he hated me haha. He basically thought I was a stuck up “preppy” girl and I thought he was just the class clown. We ended up sitting next to each other one semester in art class, and I really started to get to know him. His personality was everything to me and I always looked forward to him making me laugh the entire time in class.
As the semester passed, we became inseparable best friends, and that summer, we did everything together. We went to movies, concerts, coffee shops, and spent nights staying up late talking, but I always just told everyone we were “only best friends.”
I loved Tanner and wanted to be more than friends, but knew I would risk losing him as a best friend if we ever started a relationship and it didn’t work out. After all, we were just teenagers at the time, and how many teenage relationships ever become a success when they are both about to go to college?
Before the start of our senior year of high school, Tanner told me he loved me. I went back and forth mentally for a while wondering if it would be smart to date my best friend, I didn’t want anything to jeopardize our friendship that was so important to me. However, my heart could not let him go, I could never stop thinking about Tanner and could not picture him or myself dating anyone else. I knew he was my person and I knew if I started a relationship with him, that this would be the real deal and for the long run.
Right after senior year started, I told Tanner I was in love with him too, and the rest is history. We started dating August 26,2013 and have remained best friends ever since. Now I get to marry him!? MY HEART COULD NOT BE HAPPIER!!!
Ok, I know that’s not the story you clicked on this post for, but we have a long history, so there is a lot that leads up to this proposal!
Fast forward to this year, almost 6 years together and I have never loved someone more. Relationships are not easy, they take a lot of work, and disagreements will happen! Yet, this is one of the major reasons I love Tanner; he doesn’t give up when it gets tough, he doesn’t call me names, yell, or belittle me. We have a mutual respect for each other and have learned to communicate through the difficult times.
With Tanner, every day feels like hanging out with my best friend. The simplest things like grocery shopping, become so much more fun when he’s with me. Basically, he’s just everything I have ever prayed for, he’s a man with integrity, empathy, drive, compassion, humor, and so much more. I knew years ago that if he were to ever propose, my answer would be a definite yes! We had talked about getting engaged in the future, but I never thought it would be this year!
Ok, here’s the actual story you’ve been waiting to read:
The Proposal: March 13, 2019 in Oahu, Hawaii
Tanner, our friend Ian, and I had just spent all day shopping in Honolulu. I had the “great” idea of wearing brand new platform tennis shoes from Forever 21 all day while walking miles around the city. Needless to say, cheap platform shoes that haven’t been broken in yet, probably not the best option.
Later that evening, we got back to our condo at the gorgeous Ko Olina Resort, and all I wanted to do was rest. We had been in the sun all day, had been walking since that morning, and had just sat in over an hour of traffic to get back to our resort, thankfully our Uber driver was the best!!! Basically, Tanner mentioned wanting to walk on the beach during sunset, and I was being a brat about my feet hurting. He kept trying to get me to go down to the beach, but I was not having it, my feet were tired and I wanted a nap! I also had no idea that he had a romantic stroll in mind, I thought Ian would just tag along with us and we were all going to hangout on the beach. Little did I know, Tanner told Ian to make up an excuse to stay in the condo whenever we invited him to walk with us. Ian’s excuse? “My feet hurt.” and I was like “OMG SAMEEEEE *insert eye roll* TANNER IS LIKE DRAGGING ME TO THE BEACH!”
Finally, I agreed to go sit on the rocks during the sunset with him and once I got down to the beach, I was sorry for acting like a brat because the sunset was so gorgeous and I knew Tanner just wanted to have a sweet moment with me. Once I got over myself haha, Tanner and I sat on the rocks during the sunset and begin having one of our deep life talks. He started mentioning the future with me, and how I had always been there for him. We had these talks a lot, so I wasn’t suspicious AT ALL about the possibility of there being a ring in his pocket. I don’t want to go too in depth with everything we talked about with each other, because this moment was just about the two of us, and I don’t want to share all the details of such a personal and vulnerable moment with everyone. In short, he was saying some things to me that were making me cry in the best way possible, and was looking at me with a different kind of look in his eye.
He took my hand and had me stand up on the rocks to watch the rest of the sunset with him, which, by the way, was the most beautiful sunset I’ve ever seen. All of the sudden, he kneels down on one knee, and pulls out the most beautiful ring, and asks me to be his wife!!! My heart in this moment is something I will never be able to explain. I was in complete shock but also in such a trance of joy. My answer was yes, OF COURSE!!!!! He told me how he called my dad to ask for his blessing, which he knew was always so important to me (what a gentleman)! I spent about another 30 mins after the proposal ugly crying tears of happiness. A woman came up to us and took our picture afterwards, saying that she had gotten married right down the beach we were on, and wanted to capture this moment for us.
The proposal itself was such a sweet, quiet moment away from the rest of the world, well minus Tanner’s entire family watching us from the condo’s balcony hahaha, but I’m happy they got to see our happy moment! I wasn’t feeling “pretty” after spending a whole day in the sun, my hair was in braids and I was wearing a $5 graphic tee (Tanner and I joked about this later), but that didn’t matter, nothing mattered except that moment with Tanner and the moment I said yes to forever with him!
We got back to the condo, where everyone cheered for us and shared their congratulations! My heart is still so full from all the emotions from that night, and I will never forget going to sleep with my ring on, cuddled up next to my fiancé, in Hawaii, with the biggest smile on my face and dreaming of the future with my best friend!
Although its been a while since my last blog post, I have been increasingly growing on Instagram, and I am thrilled about all the support I am getting as a social media “micro-influencer”, fashion and lifestyle blogger, content creator, etc.
As most of you know, I started blogging as a hobby, and plan to continue it as a hobby. I am so thankful for the support I receive on my Instagram and on my blog, and plan to continue growing both of my online platforms. I just wanted to start this post out by saying thank you to anyone who has supported me or has taken the time to read my posts, I am so excited and unbelievably stunned that I am almost to 5k on Instagram! If you aren’t already following me, I recommend doing so, because that is where I share most of my thoughts and “micro-blog posts” with ya’ll!
Although Instagram can be a dangerous catalyst in the “comparison game” of life, it has allowed me to open up more, share my creativity, connect with other creators, and to network with amazing companies and individuals for collaborations and sponsorships. I just feel very thankful that I’ve found something to put all of my creative energy into and that my followers seem to value what I create and share with them!
As far as a life update goes, well, I graduated in December with a business degree in Marketing. Since then, I have been doing some freelance marketing work for a few different companies and individuals on website creation, social media managing, growth, creating promotions, etc.. I absolutely love freelancing because it enables me to be my own boss, in a way, and allows me to use my creativity with little to no boundaries.
I am still living with Tanner, my boyfriend since high school, and we are currently renting a house that is owned by my mom. Since my mom is selling the house soon, we are in the process of finding a new place to live and figuring out where we are going to move. In the meantime, we have showings on our house almost weekly and I have been working hard at cleaning and staging the house for showing potential buyers.
Tanner and I are doing wonderful in our relationship! We are at a hectic and confusing time in life trying to figure out our next step when it comes to finding a home, moving, looking for jobs, etc. I am learning to put my trust fully in God when it comes to dealing with the unknowns. Otherwise, I would be a nervous wreck, since I am a control freak and need to have a 5 year life plan in place at all times! Anyone else?
I am also leaving for Hawaii this week and have never been so excited for a vacation in my life!!! I am beyond thrilled and grateful to have this opportunity of a lifetime! I am going with Tanner and his family, and feel so lucky that they invited me to go with them, especially since I have never been! I will be in Honolulu and plan on drinking Mai Tais by the beach, hiking in some of the most picturesque settings, and soaking up the sun (or at least as much sun as a ginger can tolerate lol)!
After Hawaii, Tanner and I will be searching for a new home to rent and I will be searching for a more permanent job wherever we decide to move, but plan to continue both blogging and freelance marketing as “side hustles”. Although life is filled with unknowns and unanswered questions, I am so excited and restless to see what the future holds for me and I am turning to God for all the answers.
If you’re reading this and are also a 20-something year old that feels confused about life, know this: you don’t have to have it all together yet. If you are working hard for what you want, and are passionate about what you do, you are already half way there! Take a deep breath and work hard to reach the goals you have for yourself, but remember that nothing worth having comes easy and you certainly won’t become an icon like Beyoncé overnight. It may take years for you to become the person you strive to be, to have the dream job you’ve always wanted, to find “the one”, to learn your worth, etc., but as long as you are actively pursuing your passion and working towards being the person you want to be, you are already getting closer! Stay patient, be realistic yet optimistic, put in the WORK, and keep the faith!
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